I want to curl up like a ball,
Block out the world around me,not to feel anything, to close my eyes for a long time,
I am hurting, paying for my past crimes.
Just feel the numbness of an unknown drug coursing through my veins,
Shut out reality, hide all my fears, tinged with regret, my past,
I want God to take away all the sadness, my only Prayer, an impossible hope, why is my life barren, so vast?